my anchor is love.

“Though he slay me, yet I will trust in him” (Job 13:15).

I will not doubt, though all my ships at sea
Come drifting home with broken masts and sails;
I will believe the Hand which never fails,
From seeming evil worketh good for me.
And though I weep because those sails are tattered,
Still will I cry, while my best hopes lie shattered:
“I trust in Thee.”

I will not doubt, though all my prayers return
Unanswered from the still, white realm above;
I will believe it is an all-wise love
Which has refused these things for which I yearn;
And though at times I cannot keep from grieving,
Yet the pure ardor of my fixed believing
Undimmed shall burn.

I will not doubt, though sorrows fall like rain,
And troubles swarm like bees about a hive.
I will believe the heights for which I strive
Are only reached by anguish and by pain;
And though I groan and writhe beneath my crosses.
I yet shall see through my severest losses
The greater gain.

I will not doubt. Well anchored in this faith,
Like some staunch ship, my soul braves every gale;
So strange its courage that it will not quail
To breast the mighty unknown sea of death.
Oh, may I cry, though body parts with spirit,
“I do not doubt,” so listening worlds may hear it,
With my last breath.

-Richard Fuller

These words rupture joy in my soul every time I read them. They are a reminder that when I am facing a fiery trail, God’s timing, His answer to prayer will come when He sees fit. And I have learned to be content with that.

I understand that the Creator of the universe has an infinite amount of knowledge and any insignificant wisdom that I may hold was given to me by Him. That doesn’t mean that there won’t be times of struggle. That doesn’t mean there wont be times of hurt or pain. And that doesn’t mean there won’t be times of weeping. But despite any difficult situation or circumstance I face, I am assured that He is faithful.

Over these last few years I have struggled with a circumstance, a cross I have carried. I have continued to pray and, even at times, plead for the circumstances to change. But despite years of unanswered prayer, I clutch to His truth and I hold to His promises. I am confident in His abounding grace and mercy. And it His love, which will continue to be my anchor.

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